Height: 5 foot 3 inches
SW (this time around...): 140
GW1: 120 (X)
GW2: 115 (X)
GW3: 110 (X)
GW4: 107 (_)
UGW: 105 (_)
Number of Binge-Free Days: 5 (11/13/11)
So sorry for being gone! I got put in “recovery” and I gained like 8 pounds and was too embarrassed to log on. Well, I lost it again and I’m back on track. 7 days binge free and I’m going binge free til I’m 105. I’m gonna be 105 by my 16th birthday in one month. LET’SDOIT
Being in the midst of this disease is like sitting at the bottom of a well and not having anyone notice where you’ve gone. You’re sitting there, you’re starving, you’re clawing and crawling your way out, but it’s useless. You can’t get out without anyone else’s help, but they haven’t even noticed you’ve left.
In reality, you’re sitting on the lounge watching your favourite show. In reality, you’re sitting at the table eating as little as you can get away with. In reality, you’re laughing and walking home with your friends. But in your reality, in your mind, you’re sitting at the bottom of that well and you’re screaming, but no-one can hear you, they believe this facade you put up around yourself.
—Phoebe Tacon (via bullymia)
And I think I’m now ready to get better. Hopefully.